September 28, 2006

Yesterday my boss asked me to perform a fire drill, She told me that she had done day shifts the day prior and out of 350 employees there were 165 casulties. And at least a half dozen with severe burns.
I waited until I had second and third shift on board a total of 35 employees. I had already given a heads up to the dept heads. At 10:15 pm I called the alarm company to put our alarms into test mode for 1 hour, and set off the fire alarm. It took close to five minutes to get everyone out. Not good enough by my standards.
I lost to maintence men, and a sanatation worker who decided he needed something out of his locker. I have requested another drill in two month's. Request accepted.

September 27, 2006

These last few day's have been tough, There are things going on in the spiritual realm that I cannot even begin to understand let alone explain. The effects it's having on me are even harder for example. I feel physically drain of all my energy, I feel mentally drained, I feel like I'm loosing control of my day to day life, my emotions are....... Well I feel like I could blow at the slightest things.
Example Destiany's father call my father in law today to see if he could come ove and see desi. Normally that's not a problem - however, he called yesterday and asked the same question but we were going out and then her grandma picked her up. The problem is he didn't bother to ask one of us he went past both of us and directly to my father in law, knowing full well that he would say yes. (underlying concern - Mike (desi's father) has professed to having feeling for Becky. He told my father in law this about a month or so ago. And then asked him not to say anything.)
I left strict word when desi's father got there that he was to leave when my father did. IT has also been made known he is not to be in the house alone with Becky for any reason.
On another note I'm trying my hardest to make myself available for my "did" friends but I'm having trouble focusing on things and do not wish to say something to hurt them. I need to protect them and myself from me. I just hope they understand.

September 23, 2006

It seems my past continues to haunt me. The mpd's I am working with are really bugging me with the things they are doing and the things they claim are happening to them. I'm not saying that they are lying. But the experiences are to much, to fast to often. I don't have the experience or the knowledge to handle some of this stuff.
Also my back is really hurting the disk in my back is causing some issues, as well as the pain in my knee. Most of seems to be bothering me is my past in the coven. October is right around the corner, and along with that All Hollows eve. The black high holiday and all the memories that come with it.
I have attempted several times without success to use a mind block for the memories but it has not helped. I have also tryied self hypnosis without success. I can handle the memories themselfs but recent events have caused major added stress to these memories.
Oh well it will come and it will go. And all will be riht again. Or at least as right can be in this world.

Sepember 20, 2006

Not really a whole lot to write about - I continue to be amazed at the things mpds do to get me online. Last night was a classic case, One of the trouble somes was giving my wife a hard time, about something and had locked up the others in a room.
Becky seemed to be trying to handle things on her own but was not doing to good with the recent activitys here with a friends mom who had just undergone surgery. So she was dealing with some flash back issues. I have learned a few tricks about dealing with some of the alters, and this particular alter has been a thorn in my side. I dealt with him sufficently. and went on to the next problem.
This was a little more severe. The person I shall call Scarlet had been taken over by a "demon of sorts". When the "demon" found out my coven name it freaked out and left.
The human mind never ceases to amaze me.

September 18, 2006

Well it's Monday, Went to bed feeling like a used rag. Woke up this morning feeling no better. Becky had her new child come today (Addison). She had no trouble with the transition at all which did not surprise me.
I'm at work feeling like tish, but I refuse to miss work unless I have no control over the matter. ( Which would have to be in the form of two broken legs, and uncontious), I love my job even more I love my boss. Christy had been great to me, I have not had a supervisor/ friend since I left Mass. She is my boss, my friend, and very much a lady.
Just thinking

Why is it that we as Christians shrink back when it comes to sharing our faith? People wear crystals around their necks and if you asked them about it they are more then happy to share with you about the “healing power they possess”. Ask a Jehovah’s witness about their religion and they make no bones about telling you why Watchtower is the greatest publication since sliced bread. And the same can be said for every religious movement since Jesus. Everyone of them have something in common they all deny the deity of Christ. Oh, some call him a good teacher. Some say he’s just another man from history.
Many Christians are swayed by their arguments, about what the Bible says. Why? Because we as believers don’t take the time to sit, and read what the God’s words has to say. We would rather watch t.v watch a movie, spend time on the computer etc. etc. Why is that we don’t find the time to pray? Read and study the Bible?
I’ll tell you why, because somewhere along the line we have taken a back seat, We have somehow got the idea that to know what God’s word says is for the Pastor to teach us. It is easier to listen to someone tell us what his/her ideas of what is written for everyone to read instead of reading it for ourselves.
This is why many Christians get caught in false doctrines, false religions, and false teachings. Because the person they met have “knowledge that the scriptures said this or that” How foolish!! That is exactly why Cults are so propionate in today’s world. Because the Church is to busy having bake sales and other things to look at their brother or sisters in Christ, and teach them. That is why the cult’s flourish in other country’s because the body of believers is saying it’s not my responsibility let the younger members tend to that.
Wake up Church!!!! If we continue to sit back on our duffs the church will continue to loose it’s strength. The Bible say’s there will be a great falling away. But I believe it’s because people are loosing faith in their first love. The Church isn’t a place to go and see Martha and get her recipe for strawberry jam, or to talk to Gene about his wife best friends affair with her uncles, cousin’s brother!
It’s a place to come and worship the living God! It’s about finding out about a God who loves us so much that he sent His only begotten son, So that we can have eternal life! What is wrong with the church today? I’m glad you asked. She has gotten away from what is important and sidetracked by the things of this world.
Saint’s the things of this world are only good for one thing starting a fire, because at the day of judgment when you stand before the Lord your God and he asks you what you did to further His kingdom and what makes you think you deserve your place in heaven aside from your salvation in Christ,
What will you tell Him?

September 17, 2006

We went to the new church today, Pastor Spoke on the headship of the church based on the book of acts. We were met by several people prior to and after the service. Becky is exdited abou this church, I however remain skeptical. I'm a little uneasy, around new people and especially a new church, The Chrurch body itself seems to be pretty large but not so big one would get swollowed up. And never knoticed.

September 15, 2006

Well it's been a long day, Becky and I got a chance to do something we enjoy doing and went yard sailing. We did'ny get much but we had fun doing not much of anything.
I came to work at 1:00 punched in and now it's 11:30 and I'm still waiting for my last truck to get here so I can go do my lock up rounds and go home. I really hare friday's when this guy wayne is working. He milks the time so he can get over time in the mean time I have to sit and wait for him it's irratating but his company says it's not his fault.
If they only knew.

September 14, 2006

Finally got a day where I could sleep in, not something I do often but felt good to do. I checked my mail played sims for a bit. Nothing real exciting.
However yesterday I had a flashback - a word kept coming to my mind but thought little of it.
Then one my way to work I had a flashback of when I was in the coven. The word was my name in the coven. I'll be perfectly honest it scared the snot out of me.
I won't go into detail but it was very real, I'm surprised I made it to work in one peice. I don't remember driving to work.
But I guess this is why they say God protects us with his feathers and his wings.

September 13, 2006

Ok let's see -
Today started out rotten, I was attempting to sleep in and was rudley awoken by two dogs barking, ours and the one who we were dog sitting. They finally quited down and I drifted off again. Only to be woke up again. So I decided to get up. I got online to check in on some friends, and went to a chat room to help some people work through somehthings. And our internet provider decided it was a good time to shut it off.
Becky wanted me to call them. Which I did do and of course got the phone tree. Which added to my frustration. Then when I finally got someone real to talk to. I was told what happen. (they had turn off our service). Isn't it funny how they can turn your service off but you can't charge them when they have technical difficulties.
Any way our service is back on and we are back online. I'm at work kinda board there is no more trucks in or out so I'm kind just here.